I will kill

No. I don't want to kill him. It would be too easy. Too easy for him. And too easy for me.

I want to kill his soul. To reduce him to a vegetative state. His body will stay alive but in great pain. Such great pain that he will crack and his soul will gradually die. A slow painful death. Until he reaches a state where the body is still alive, but there's nothing inside.

And when that happens. The process of my healing shall begin. To see him reduced to an insignificant existence, mocked by all, would bring calm to me.

And then the final stage may be reached - the stage where from a monster, I gradually turn human again. Someone with a heart, and a soul. Someone who can be vulnerable, can feel pain, and can love.

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